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Post Created 25 Dec, 2011 2:31:16 AM

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一年前的今天和一年后的今天果然是不一样了。every thing changes. 希望天下有情人在这个季节过的开开心心。

我寂寞寂寞就好，也过的不错。吃的饱，睡的好。

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Post Created 23 Dec, 2011 6:22:38 PM

2011-12-23T02:22:00.001-08:00

Yant Phet Phaya Thong by Archan Thor

Post Created 6 Nov, 2011 7:45:08 PM

2011-11-06T03:45:00.001-08:00

Yant Nak Lersi by Grandmaster Keow

Post Created Oct 9, 2011 3:41:18 AM

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I'm very worry I can't receive my payment.... God please bless me I can receive my payment smoothly.... Thank you...

Post Created Sep 30, 2011 3:58:46 PM

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From now onwards, I'm going to enjoy my life to the max... I work hard, I'm going to play hard too... Hopefully my payment can come in successfully.

No point crying like a baby any more. I want to live a life of a higher class... Jia you!!!

Post Created Sep 26, 2011 7:43:16 PM

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I don't know what to say le.... I just hope I can go for a holiday.... If one day I can't be contacted I might be on a holiday some where, I just want to be alone for some times... I need a break... I'm very tired physically and mentally... Too tired to think of anything.... If I MIA don't worry for me ok, my dear buddy....

Post Created Sep 23, 2011 4:31:33 PM

2011-09-23T01:31:00.001-07:00

幸福是掌握在自己的手中，我要拿回我的幸福，在把所有的幸福交给你，给你一辈子的幸福，一辈子疼你，爱你和照顾你。

我不想在后悔下去了。。。能够在跟你在一起回才是我的幸福，希望我还能够有这个机会，因为我爱你。

Post Created Sep 23, 2011 1:37:16 AM

2011-09-22T10:37:00.001-07:00

Finally I can have a gd night sleep tonight... So tired and not sleeping enough for the past 1 week...

After thinking for so long and I thought I had put every thing down... But actually I can't put it down... So I have decided to go for it... God please give me your blessings ok... Thank you...

Post Created Sep 17, 2011 1:29:05 AM

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It's yen Ming birthday today... 17/9/2011 1.21am... Sitting in my car now listening to careless whisper.. I celebrated her birthday with her at a Japanese buffet restaurant at suntec... After that we went to one Fullerton... And count down to her birthday with her... Bought a small pie as her birthday cake for her... Aiya forget take photo... Hmmm... I also dunno how to describe my feeling right now, but I'm happy to see her happy... I just want her to be happy every day that's all...

Happy birthday to u my 宝贝。

Post Created Sep 16, 2011 7:05:32 PM

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Saw her holding the roses on her hands I dunno why the kind of feeling came back again... Dunno wat to say... Haiz.. I did not even prepare any present for her... It's her birthday tomorrow..

Post Created Sep 14, 2011 9:53:21 PM

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Post Created Sep 12, 2011 8:28:33 PM

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This few days very tired and shag.. Had been doing my online job and really in a rash. I'm way behind the schedule... Papa come back home Liao have to bring him out to eat. After reach home have to chiong again until early morning... My eyes really damn tired....
Tired also gd lah, dun need to think of so much things also... Now I feel I have too many things to do and I dun have enough time to use... It's a gd thing to be busy any way... At least I dun feel that I'm useless any more...

Now having RES lesson at TPY... Having break now... Lesson faster end... I need to get home and continue working.... Really feeling stress.... I scared I can't complete my job on time....

Post Created Sep 9, 2011 4:46:39 AM

2011-09-08T13:46:00.001-07:00

After trying refreshing the stupid webpage for few hours, I finally gave up.. Really piss me off...

Went to fb and look back at Candy's profile and all the photos we had took together... We did really had a very sweet memory behind... Really miss her a lot... Miss her voice, her laughter... She really brighten up my day... How I wish she is still around... I miss her so much... She is still my best girl... No one can replace her... We are living together as though we have gotten married already... We do most of the things together... We go every where together...

I MISS U CANDY....

If I were able to rewind back the time, I will travel with you along PIE that very day... And things could be prevented... We would already be happily married by now...

Post Created Sep 2, 2011 1:00:00 AM

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Candy, do u still remember this is our song?

Post Created Sep 2, 2011 12:25:29 AM

2011-09-01T09:25:00.001-07:00

我也不知道该对你说什么。

Post Created Sep 2, 2011 12:20:10 AM

2011-09-01T09:20:00.001-07:00

2011-09-01T08:27:00.000-07:00

There is no such thing as fair or unfair.... anyway this world is full of unfairness.. If everything u compare here and there, there will be never ending....

From now onwards, I will catch up with all of the him and will defeat all of the him....

(him: refers to those who potong jalan my ex)

So remember, there is no such thing as fair or unfair. Dont compare here n there.... it will have never ending. 爱情是不能拿来做比较的，it will hurt your other half, because nobody is perfect. Every one have different gd point and different bad points. Love him/her for who they are. He/her will change to become a better person because he/her loves u too.

There is a saying that "If u love her, set her free. If she returns, she is yours."

To all my dearest ex, i decided to let all of u go, because i love u and love u for who u are and i want all of you to be happy. But no one returns, so means no one belongs to me. nvm, u all live a happy life i also happy for all of u.

As for myself, money please return to my side...... money money come!!! Please.... I need u so badly..... You are my one and only love....

2011-08-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

全世界的人看不起我的时候，连你也开始看不起我。我最需要你的时候你也离开我。爱情不能够拿来做比较的，但你也那我和他做比较。

I WILL DO BETTER AND LIVE BETTER THAN BEFORE!!!!!

HUAT AH!!!!!!!! POWER LAH!!!!!! HO SEH LAH!!!!!!!

2011-08-30T11:04:00.000-07:00

it is time to put down every thing, I just hope she can be happy.... So i had gave up totally and decided to let her go.... I want her to find her happiness too. I can't be so selfish..... I have totally put down the heavy stone. I still have my family around as well as my dearest aunty ho and sister kwek. I have to be strong and stand up again.... and work towards my dream. Every one had been looking down on me.... its time to buck up.... i really disappoint every one around me.... I really feels that im a piece of shit.... but its time to turn this piece of shit and allow it to blossom into a flower. My heart had been broken once again, its time to put it back into pieces. Although it fills with fulls of scars, but I will try my best to stay strong, even stronger than before. I had encounter the worst, this is nothing compared to the past. I will work towards my dream, and I will never give up again my dream for any one else. I just want to leave happily forever, I want to do whatever i want.... i don't want to live my life in regret..... I want to fullfill my own dream..... I had already had the intention to give up my dreams twice for the person I once used to love. No more third time..... I am once, twice a silly boy, but no more third time. I had enough, its not worth it. Why should I torture myself? You may think I'm selfish, but who is the one who forces me to be selfish? I will not be a Mr Nice guy again, unless some one who can really touched my heart. But I think there are none..... this kind of person already extinct.

But its alright, I still have my dearest Buddies Benny Lim, Aunty Ho and sister Kwek. I don't need to have many friends, a few good ones is enough.

Post Created Aug 30, 2011 9:24:38 PM

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Some times I wish I will never grow up, or I never exist in this world. This world is full of cruelties.... I always believe in being gd and others will treat me gd in return... But I was wrong... I'm really to 天真。 there are many cunning people out there... U will loose out if u are not cunning enough...
MONEY & AUTHORITY is the most important..... My day will come... I will definitely live better than before.... I will live up to my dreams....
现在我只能够用钱 to make myself numb...

Post Created Aug 30, 2011 8:35:08 PM

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你门懂什么是 potong jalan 吗？really hate people who do that. I never do that others... Y others are treating me like this? Haiz... 什么是永远？ there is no such things... All are B.S!!!

busy recently

2011-08-29T09:19:00.001-07:00

These few days very busy doing my Internet thing.. Got no time to update my blog... Free I update again.... Huat ah!!

2011-08-25T13:53:00.001-07:00

Went to trinity church today with Aunty Ho and Sister Kwek... Had been playing Iphone thoughout the service... lol!!!!! after that went to bugis to have fishball noodle with them. Aunty Ho intro her cousin to me n sister kwek.... she so sweet looking.... heeehee...... Aunty Ho finally pass me the macaroni she bought in Melborne.... when hungry then I eat.... heehee..... today also receive a bomb from shi hui, as she is getting married in Oct.....

After i proceed home, i receive an email about my online job account had been approved.... immediately i tried out as im too desperate for $$$.... lol!!!!! After 2.5 hours of work.... i earned UDS$147..... Not bad huh.... time to turn in for bed and chiong tomorrow....

Nights peeps....

Post Created Aug 23, 2011 10:47:35 PM

2011-08-23T07:46:00.001-07:00

Have been sitting down on this very bench for years looking at the carpark facing blk 122. Just came back from TPY after having dinner with the kwek family. Having my 2nd puff downstair my house while blogging.

Sometimes I really wish I could be a kid again... No worries, no stress, happy go lucky... This is life, I have no choice but to face it.

2011-08-22T14:09:00.000-07:00

How I wish I can partially format my memory, backup those I wanted to remember and delete those which I wanted to forget. Fully shutdown myself when I'm feeling very tired. But I know its not possible. Haiz.. Its 5.10 am 23/8/2011... Im still awake at this timing when every one is asleep. I'm trying very hard not to think of you.... I keep finding excuses for myself to hate you, so that I will feel better. But when I heard your voice when u called me yesterday night, my heart became soft. WHY???? Im feeling very terrible...... I want to leave Singapore.... I do not want to stay here...... Im sick of this place...... haiz..... I dunno how am i going to fustrate my unhappiness out.... 我真的很希望当初没认识到你。 you make my life really a living hell..... im having headache almost every day all because of you.... WHY??????? Im really very sick of it!!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!!!!! I WON'T TRUST ANY ONE ANY MORE.... whatever all of you told me are all LIES!!!! 什么是永远？这世界根本都没有永远的。一个两个讲爱我也是假的。 ALL ARE FAKE!!!! 这世界上根本是没有天长地久的，全都是骗人的。

2011-08-22T13:43:00.000-07:00

有什么可以形容这些男人呢？只有4个字 “趁须而入”。尤其是那些有老婆的。我又能做什么呢？ There is nothing I can do. 你自己好知为知吧。Really no eye see. I respect other people, but y others don't respect me? Is it really I have to be one of them and they will repect me? WTF! I really hate this kind of feeling....

I will not be a Mr Nice guy all of you who once know. No point being nice.... Its too unfair to me.... I'm damn sick of every thing. I can be even worse than all of u out there. Don't give me a chance, I will return you double or triple of what you all deserve. I have enough of all these nonsense.

2011-08-22T04:35:00.000-07:00

Although 燕名 and me had gone our seperate ways, but we still decide not to change our facebook status as we do not want so much awareness too. But dunno why today she still decided to change back her status as single. Any way, I respect her decision too. If she really feel better this way just let her be ba... i can't force her also. ALthough i felt very painful for this breakup, but i still wish her all the best. Afterall, I just want her to be happy.

New Yant added

2011-08-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

Today I have a new yant added and bought a new Takrut.

Yant Maha Chok Lup Tung Thong Thong Hgern:

This Yant is meant for Phor Kar Sap (Wealth). Tung Thong means "Gold Bag" & Thung Ngern means "SIlver Bag". The yant will help to protect wealth & fortune, and also helps to get money smoother.

Its sak using Nam Man Wan Dot Thong (Golden FLower Oil) to improve its maximum effects.

POWER LAH!!!!

After it recover can't see anything liao...

The Function of the Takrut Inn Thong:

- Inside contains wood from Mai Thep Pha for fetching of fortune and wealth. A takrut inside for protection, Inn Thong for senah purpose and also Wan Dot Thong (Golden FLower).

My Sak Yants

2011-08-22T04:04:00.000-07:00

This are the sak yants I have done so far:

1.) Yant Wan Pheng (On the extreme right and left shoulder) By Ahjarn Ae:

- The one on the left is fot metta.

- The one on the right is to ward off evil & ghost

2.) Yant Gao York Phor thiang (The one biggest in the centre) By Ahjarn Ae:

- This yant is enhanced all the 9 fields in aspect of life.

3.) Yant Duan Keow ( the 3 cross look alike) By Ahjarn Mann:

- To Improve personal metta

- To protect us from danger, badd stuff & prevent back stabbing

- Improve luck, success in selling, promotion in work & improvement in life.

4.) Yant Nak Khru (The one on my right hand) By Ahjarn Mann:

- Buddha Power (Invicibility)

- Avoid Danger

- Five Elements (What we need to live)

- Metta

别说我的眼泪你无所谓

2011-08-20T07:14:00.001-07:00

一个人在这个也里
孤单的难以入睡
真的想找个人来陪
不愿意一个人喝醉
醉了以后就会流泪
数着你给的伤悲
为什么你总让我憔悴
别说我的眼泪你无所谓
看我流泪你头也不回
哭过了泪干了心变成灰
我想要的美
你还不想给
伤了的我的心怎去面对
爱给了你，我不后悔
只希望你给我一次机会
让我去追，让我去飞
毕竟爱过的心需要安慰
需要你安慰

One of my fav song few years ago. Until now I still remember the lyrics. Hmmm.... There is no other way I can express my feeling other then singing out words from my heart.

new iPad 2

2011-08-20T06:34:00.001-07:00

Mummy finally got her new iPad 2 from her god daughter today.... Haha I feel so excited for her also...reach home Liao help her to synchronize and download games to her iPad... Too bad she can't play with it 1st as she going Hong Kong tomorrow.... Lol.... So I will play for her 1st lor....

Today went to Fu Lu Shou with mummy n Benny.... Benny wants to buy his Pid Da amulet... I feel excited for him too... I saw a Khun Pen red in colour, like it very much... But think it will b quite costly... Nvm... Next time got $ then I buy.... Anyway I have reserve a tukrut Inn Thong from Vincent... Made by Ahjarn Kay... Hahaha... So excited, can't wait till mon... Wanted to add some more yants to my body but now not working ah, so just buy a tukrut as a consolation prize for myself....

Today after Benny bought his amulet, we went to buy 4d. We bought 2099 (his jartukam amulet no) & 6560 (his ganisha amulet no). End up open 2089 & 6506... We fish until like hell man.... WTF!!!!!! Nvm, not our luck... I thought if strike Liao I can go buy my Khun Pen amulet and have 3 sak yants done by Ahjarn Kay.... :(

Today my gums swollen too.... Pain pain.... Boo hoo boo hoo.... :(

Later going loyang tua pek kong to pray as Benny is quite unlucky recently.... Fall down 3 times in his kitchen at the exact same location and kanna the same leg....

After that will be going airport to fetch aunty Ho.... She is finally back from Melbourne.... Already delayed for 2 days due to the bad weather there.... Today delay again... Hope she will be back safely.....

visiting 2 petrol station toilet along bukit merah, esso & caltex

2011-08-19T09:31:00.001-07:00

After eating dinner, stomach started to pain sia.... So while driving along bukit merah, I head to the esso petrol station... Buay tahan Liao... Already reach custom le, faster chiong to toilet.... At 1st I thought petrol stations toilet are very dirty... But I was surprise... No ammonia smell at all... Faster chiong into the cubicle and bomb the toilet.... Wow! What a relief... So head back to my car and continue my journey.... Less than 1 min, stamach pain again... Lucky infront got a caltex petrol station... Immediately accelerate towards caltex... Reach there chiong to toilet again.... To my surprise, it was even better than esso.... Woooo.... The best petrol station toilet I ever visited.... Looks so class.... And now, I'm in my home toilet continue bombing again while blogging.... Having a bad diarrhea today.... :(

Post Created Aug 19, 2011 6:39:03 PM

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当全世界的人都不相信我的时候，只有你不能够不相信我。但是你已经在也不相信我了。

Post Created Aug 19, 2011 12:39:05 PM

2011-08-18T21:38:00.001-07:00

Testing blogging from iPhone....

2011-08-16T21:47:00.000-07:00

What a sad day...... was terminated by my company due to poor attendance at work. Can't blame any one also lah, it's my own fault anyway. That's why i always said mindset is very important. I'm really trying hard to change my mindset. Although it's just a $6/hour job, its can let me tahan temporary until i pass my real estate course. Really really need to buck up le...... i cannot go on like this any more.....

2011-08-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

这六个月我都很坚强的过，我始终又站了起来。

我认识了一个新的女生，她是我在 Motec 做工的一位同事。她对我真的很好，起初我不敢跟他表白，因为我觉得太快有一段新的感情了。但是缘分以到，怎么推也推不走了，2010年12月25日我们就开始了一段新的感情。

这是我们合拍的第一张照片。

不知不觉到今天，她始终也离开了我。不是因为她不爱我，还是被别人抢走，还是我对她不好。问题是出现于我自己。自从我们在一起2个月后我就离开了 Motec, 过后就每做工了。我根本都没给她安全感，给她的感觉我很懒惰，吃不了苦，根本没能力照顾她。有可能那时我还觉得很 lost, 不知道该往哪个方向走才对，浪费了几个月的时间。现在我终于想通了，但是一切已经太迟了。她对我以失去了信心。如果能够在给我多一次的机会，我一定会好好的把握的。做人不能懒惰，什么都要去试试做。真的尽力了也问心无愧。

Nothing is impossible. Its only your mindset whether you want to do it or not. Stop giving yourself excuses. You never try it you never know the outcome. If there you don't force yourself to start and keep giving yourself excuses, you won't even start at all.

I have decided to be a Real Estate Sales Person, have registered my course and will be starting end of this month. I have finally decided to step into this industry because of a simple reason. 为别人而拼，不如为自己而拼。 No point working for those idiotic bosses where they don't appreciate your hard work. We not only have to work hard, but we also have to work smart. What's the point of working so hard when all the hard earn cash only goes into your boss pocket and we get nothing, am I right?

There is a website where i would like to recommend to all of your, TO BE YOUR OWN BOSS.
http://www.anyonecanearnonline.com
This ebook is terrific. You may download the 1st chapter to read.

Now is the most down of my life, with very little income, munching a bread and a cup of tea for lunch. 男人只有两种烦恼，不是女人，就是钱。我两个都有。 I tell myself, I will never want this kind of life again. I promised myself I have to work hard, for myself, my family and my love one.

As for my most current gf 燕名, I leave every thing to fate. If we are fated to be together, we will be together. If not, I wish her all the best and I hope she can be happy aways finding her 幸福.

想回过去

2011-08-16T09:05:00.001-07:00

第一次终于下定决心写我第一个的 blog.

我在感情这路上呢都经过了风风雨雨，和我的兄弟同时最求一个女孩也有（但是失败了），女友被兄弟抢走也有，两个女有一样的名字也有，女友被别的男人抢走也有。其中一位是我永远都不会忘记的，她在2010年6月28日早上 10点20分去世了。她是她在一个摩托车骑士，对摩托车非常的疯狂。她那天在 PIE towards Changi 的 Anak Bukit Fly over 之后遇到了车祸，当场去世了。我当时赶到了现场，看到了之后真的是控制不了我自己。尤其是见她最后一面的时候，她的样子还是很清楚的显示在我脑海里。真的很难接受她忽然见这样就走了。有可能这就是天意吧。不管我们怎么样斗，也斗不过天的。这是命运吧。缘分一尽，情以世。

这是我们 2010年2月春节是在北京的万里长成拍的。